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Loves onion Bagels

ha.... over a year... proud of it!
Can't even remember the last time I kissed somebody other than my kids... but that'll change in March...

I've been here all my life and I'm getting out in March!!!! Hahaha! I can't wait!!!

Deadbeat/Irresponsible parents.... Urghhhh!

Reggie Jackson

I just needed to get away... sort me out and collect my thoughts. I'm doing really well now.

Just wanted to say hi to everyone... I've come back from my JSH break. How is everyone?

Sleep it all away
then it won't show
all you see is surface
the part that made you go.
the core is crying out
bleeding endless
there's brokenhearted girl
you now have left friendless.
No blame befalls
anyone but me...
a curse to have eyes
that cannot blindly see.
Love that remains
at any cost...
Pain unending
over love lost.

cheating never takes us anywhere in life.
for ever step forward it brings you 3 steps back.

But, JT... cheat away... you and Walker can duke it out.
I'm cashin' in my hotels...
don't feel like doin' much these days.

suffocated
heavy
lost
fallen...
reaching...
groping through the blackness
lifeless
without a beating heart
without a soul
Immortal Corpse
Numb to all
but the torment
of love forbidden.

Walker...
I think you're full of ****... lol...
and kissing a$$ won't help you win any monopoly games.

Howdy y'all... just checking in with the locals...

Silence now creeps inward
where happiness once filled
an empty black abyss
where future plans thrilled.
Sleep, I must, my angel
for our story is now told
proof once again in life
all that glitters is not gold.
And though I love thee still,
a greater cause at hand
pulls my palm away from yours
Oh, I wish you'd understand.
I drown in tears
of love never to be...
But evermore you remain
treasured to me.

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He was... I made him go.

When all is said and done
I cry myself to sleep
for the greatest love I'll ever know
it one I cannot keep...
Reality is cruelest
when it strikes out of the blue
and makes you open eyes
to do things you don't want to do.
My heart, it bleeds
My tears they fall...
don't want to face
this world at all...
For I'll never find
one more dear
than the one whom I
made disappear.

Thank you everyone for your concern. Thank you, Joyce, for the phone call.

Hopefully somebody here gets me.

If not, oh well.

Because I was completely taken with you. IT DIDN'T HIT ME TIL MY DAUGHTER CRIED LAST NIGHT. Don't you get it? Why do I have to be the bad guy here? Because I felt with my heart and then had parental instincts take over?
Had I thought about it at the beginning, believe me, I'd have said something. This hurts me as much as it hurts you. And I am sorry, so very sorry that I have to be this way.
There is a hole in my heart the size of infinity.

EVAD!!!!
I know you probably don't care to hear what I have to say. I didn't think things all the way through. And then in the middle of last night, Maya woke up crying for her dad... a guy she doesn't even remember.
IT HIT ME REALLY HARD.

What do you expect me to do?
It has nothing to do with anything but those kids, Evad. I can't be with you knowing I pulled you away from them.

I really wish you could understand.

I deactivated my account because i don't want to hear all the negative drama and bull**** that people will more than likely throw at me... however, since our business is now public... let me give my view.

You are absolutely perfect... And I do love you. And it is killing me to have it be this way.

I don't know what else I can say to make you see. This is devastating me. But I will not put those kids through what my kids go through having no father.

Doesn't matter about your ex or her current man or any of that. Those are your kids and they should be your priority... not my kids and me.

Yours is the greatest love I'll never know... and I am sorry that this is how it is.

-J

Congratulations, Guys!

May you find all the love and happiness your hearts desire!