I was just sitting here relaxing, been cooking for my oldest son back on leave in the Army and I know that he got his belly full, can never get enough of mama's cooking, and cin, rolls,
time is but a fleeting thing and all to soon he will be gone, he worries about his ole mama living alone with both boys gone, but I stay busy, and am starting to pick up the pieces and get on with life, the empty nest thing hit hard, but I'm adjusting, I know I'll see all of my family soon enough, and can't wait to spoil my grandbaby...................I love them all and miss them, but I also have been told I need to start thinking of myself some, and start getting out into the world a little more

I just got back!! We had a great time!!

looking for victims

I dont know that you can. One can either learn from it or let it eat them up, forgiveness is always an option, but forgetting rarely happens.

So God calls to Adam and says, "Adam, I have some good news and some bad news. What do you want to hear first?"
Adam replies, "The good news."
God answers, "Well, the good news is I gave you a penis and a brain."
Then Adam says, "OK, so what's the bad news?"
And God says, "I only gave you enough blood to operate one at time."

aNNA X

Crown Royale

Stiff and with a giggle
a cute drunk, I am told.
Never able to handle
what pours through and
it takes only one.
Sand of this hour glass?
Time slipping? AHA!
Teetering on her edge.
Oops.. mine, See?
There she goes, again,
with that cute grin.
My audience, laughing through
that clear liquid, moving
with their noses pointing
their finger at me.
I mean her.
This cannot continue
without being, telling.
Authentic, personal?
One is known by those
who flock.
From glass houses
See the shock,
When it tumbled as Jill fell down,
T'was all written
By intoxication's crown.

Raine Les 12/20/2009

looking throught the mists at dawn, I thought I saw her in the air..
her gown a satin whisper, as she turned, and wasn't there.

the glimpse I had was fleeting, but my heart swells, as I ponder...
I thought the princess of the wood, was gone, to forever wander.

she must be sad,I know she is, the way we've done her mistress...
our Mother Earth is torn and tattered, 'cause man has caused distress.

perhaps one thing that all could do, at Christmas time this year...
christians, jews, and muslims too, we all should shed a tear.

for the sadness we have caused the Earth, for hungry, everywhere...
this planet could feed us all, and more,if we take the time to care

take some time, it don't have to rhyme, a prayer to whomever you please...
pray for the planet, and all who are on it...say thanks for the air that we breath.

Brown Paper Bag

That psyche..thing
from the depths blurting
as it rolls off the tip of
expressions we have
picked out of a dumpster,
in the windy.
Some place, a street
where adolescence
lines against a building
playing dodge ball.
Hoping never to be hit with
complacency or boredom.
Mom'll give you chores
to keep from becoming, you know
that "H" word.
Lunch from a brown bag.

Raine Les 12/20/2009

Julie and Ed a Love Story Part 14

HEY JULIE,
HEY ED, GLAD YOU CAME OVER THIS IS PROBABLY THE LAST DANCE, LOOK AT RITA TEASING THE HELL OUT OF THAT GUY,
YEA, SHE SURE IS,
IS IT STILL RAINING?
NO, IT STOPPED,
GOOD, LETS GET DAWN, AND RITA AND GO TO MY PLACE,
You were right, that was the last song,
Rita, lets go, leave that poor guy alone, Dawn you coming?
Ok, ok, just a sec, yes I had fun dancing with you, maybe I will see you here again, yes you can give me your number,
He is cute Rita,
Yea, maybe I will call him, he was real nice too,,
He is really hot for you,
What guy isn't? ha ha
Do you want to ask him over to the house?
No, it's ok, then Dawn will feel out of place,
Ok, lets go then,
It's a little easier gettin in this time hey Ed, but not as much fun, giggle, giggle
Dawn see if there is anything good on tv,
Anyone hungry?
Julie can I eat these?
What do you want to watch?
What's that?
Real sex,
Lets watch that, it's about sex toys, ha ha
Oh, look at her,
Like that Ed?
Yea, every man likes watching two girls, wow that's a big vibrator,
Not as big as Julie's, ha ha giggle, right Dawn?
What are you saying?
Nothing Julie, giggle, giggle
Ed, how did you wind up here with three beautiful, and horny woman?
Just lucky I guess, ha ha
I wonder how lucky your going to get? ha ha
Would you guys stop that, put something else on,
Who's drinking what?
I'll have a beer,
Me too,
Dawn?
Beer is fine,
Look at that, its a fake p***y, you want to get that Ed? giggle,
Wow it looks real, Dawn check that out,,
Ed, can you give me a hand?
Sure Julie,
Come here Ed, I want to show you something,
Nice room Julie, that's a nice dresser, your wedding picture?
Yes, close the door,

There are many ways to express appreciation for someone. Be creative. That way it'll be an adventure for both of you, rather than an intimidation.

My name is Derek, i'm 39 and was dagniosed with "Aspergers". There were curcumstances in my life, beyond my control, which resulted in me never having experianced an "Eros" love relationship with a woman.I just moved from Cozumel from Texas with my mom, Im somewhat of a dependant because of my disability (which is also physical, i'm blind in my right eye and have glucoma in the left, so i can't drive.) My family also seems to think that i have a better chance in living on my own here, than in the states. My family never believed in me. They never got along with each other, but if its one thing they agree on is my "helplessness". Well, i can prove them wrong. All i need is that one chance. I'm 39 physicly but only have a life experiance of a young teen. I never had a chance to even try to make it on my own or having a wife/girlfriend of ANY kind.
The only problem with ever finding a woman now is if i end up with one my age, she’d have more life experience than me, and she’d probely be more of a “mother-figure” to me, and that is something i can do without because it just wouldn't be fair to either of us. And then the only other alternative is get together with woman who has had as much life experience as me, but the women who’d fit that category aint even women, yet, if you know what I mean. I WON’T go there! So as you can see, i’m stuck between a rock & hard place.
The closest thing i can fogure is a woman in her 20s. Do you think there's any hope for me? I listen to music alot. Im also in art & movies. I also want to find away to use me pain for art. Got alot of it, I'm sure The Good Lord's putting me through it for something..why not make it an art? I used to sketch alot before my eyes went bad.
But let me tell you one thing about my experiance (or lack of). Just because i never drove a car, doasnt mean i never been inside one.
Just please give me a chance thats all i'm asking.
Can i paste a link to my MySpace or FaceBook page here? You can read my profile too.

what causes it and how does it happen?

Decided that painful events and memories in my life...like the good ones...serve a purpose. So like a blackboard, I choose not to erase the bad times...they're precious few anyway, really...and help define who I am. They are like proud battle scars. I embrace every day...

I am fortunate that I can do my job from any location in the world.

But if I had to choose for any other reason, it would be a tough one because I've had a 25 year love afair with my job already.

love should be based on both people having the ability and commitment to make a relationship work

If someone stood you up is it ok to stand them up the next time you agree to meet?

I live in a small town with nowhere to go to meet anyone.All the guys I have talked to online are too far away.Lots of married men,but that is out!I want my own.