2 more days!!!! im so excited!!! 3 weeks off is killing me!

this is my favorite one right now that i have written.

thanks again. i just write when i feel and what i feel

thanks. i like deep very much.

aawww....thanks!

too bad hes taken.

Tell me what you honestly think.

take this burden from me
dont want this pain anymore
may you take this burden from me
take it from deep within me
eat me heart out
til you chock and die
dont want this pain anymore

Tell me what you honestly think.

saying im fine and lying to myself
i like to pretend because i dont know
looking into the mirror and seeing nothing
am i just a basement ghost singing?

standing out is my thing
trying to be anything
not knowing what i'll do next
i try and try to be someone i dont know

feeling as if no one really sees
sometimes i feel im not even real
how can i be someone who i precieve?
i want to relate, one day, to me

who do i want to be?
lights, mic, music is what i dream
is my reality a dream or my nightmare my reality?

hoping for it to end and dreaming to stay
i cant say anything to make it all just all just go away
being alone just proves to me
that im not really here
just accepted in my dream

Tell me what you think honestly.

what happened with this place?
hardship made it stronger
growing into something grand
now theres nothing left

nothings here, it will never be
absent minded is peace of mind
your not here, where you ever?
alone in this world, lost forever

i cant see into this hole
fighting and pretending with you
who are you?
where should i be?

i can hear you in myself
take it. do it. there's nothing left
am i here? or am i gone?
are you taking over and letting me go?

let me out. i want to be free
who am i and what have i become?
i need to know, who have i become?
i might never know

thank you very much!

Tell me what you honestly think.

no one can understand my frustrations
frustrations and emotions
people look at me and say, "whats wrong with her? why is she so sad?"
you wont understand
having this problem will only relieve the questions in your mind
i want to be happy and filled with laughter
i hate to be out in public and just cry and cry for no reason at all
you think i like feeling this way?
one word. one look.
one stare is all it will take for me to hit bottom of my emotional rollercoaster.
i want to wake and greet the morning sun and not curse it back to its hiding place
i want to feel that light of happiness inside of me
all my life i've been down
i want to make a change
i want to be as normal as i can be
i hate these drugs and i hate these pills
i want to stop
i want to feel

that is so true, i wish more people would realize that though.

thanks you guys. i dont think i write well at all.

Tell me what you honestly think.

this ones kinda old.....


tell me i shouldnt fall for you
when your so lonely as i am
sitting there watching you
from that conor in my mind
i can see you all to clearer now

writing it out and making me read it
i understand where you come from
both of our lives have blossomed from ****
but were strong even though we are weak

sit back and watch us bloom
no one can stop us now
together we're different
apart we're the same
how you look at me
and tell me you dont care

you never have and never will
we dont know whats on our minds
we need to go out and chill for a while
are you there?
are you listening?

i need someone in my life
you need me in yours
together we're perfect
apart we're nothing

Tell me what you honestly think.

Feeling as if I'm 14 again, sleeping and waking up with a smile on my face, all i see is you.
Scary as it may be, but I enjoy you.
Enjoy being happy, you've made me bliss.
I'm scared to death that all of this is just going to be nothing.
Nothing in the end but blood and tears.
I know I'm falling fast, so fast I'm afraid that i will scare you away.
Don't be frightened, don't be afraid.
I'm so lonely and I think that you're totally awesome.
I know I deserve you.
Deserving you meaning I think your great.
Seeing you that little bit, i knew.
But what do I know really know?
Tell me.
Is this a joke?
Or is this real?
They say it takes two to tango, well honey I want you to strut!
I feel stupid for feeling this way.
Confused, I guess, is all I have to say.

Tell me what you honestly think.

i want to know whats its like to cry without bleeding
all of this because of you.
you said i was your one.
you promised me til we died.
stole my heart and tore it to pieces.
why did you lie?
will i ever recover?
i wish i could.
these pills try but never do the trick.
i try to move on, but i still cant let you go.
wanting a new life, but im so ****ed up.
no one wants me anymore because of you.
"well see how things go",
my mind thinks that just means no.
everything is backwards.
i cant tell if im real.
feelings are worthless anymore
does he like me?
or am i scum?
i hate you because i still love you.
leave me alone and let me be.
i want to start over.
but will he ask me?

Tell me what you honestly think.

why stay awake when you have no one to keep up?
why wake up when your not going to hear i love you?
why keep living when no one really cares?
why write down these words when nobody's reading?
why care when they don't for you?
why try when their wanting to let go?
why live when all you think about it death?
why fake a smile when your really hurting inside?
why cry when theres no relief?
why do i try to care and why do i let it get to me?
but mostly why do i hate myself?

sweet!..lol..thanks! *goes to spam*

thank you!

yes..thats actually scary on how close you are! wow!....