I don't know how to forgive someone without saying they were right to do what they did.

I've dealt with it - I've defined them to be evil. Doing that allowed me to see everyone else on earth as the good guys and my parents as the bad guys. It feels like the end of an endless war for me.

My older sister has become my parents, and it scares the hell out of me. She is what I would have become if I didn't wake up and see this before it was too late.

My younger sister is just going off to college. She's my half sister, so she didn't get what I got from my dad (the high school counselor by day/violent psychopath by night).

I'm not really sure how to talk to her though, or even what to say. I don't know if she's going to feel hurt that I don't come to holiday events or talk to our mother.

Good to hear - thank you.

4 - 2 sisters and mother/father

I didn't realize until recently how badly my parent's choices affected me. The psychologist is calling it ptsd. It had to do with constant threat of violence from my dad, and my mom going off to medical school and leaving my sister and I alone with him.

I'm not mad at them, I just don't want to have to forgive them for it - because if I forgive what they did to me, that would make child abuse acceptable somehow in my mind. I never want it to be ok to do what they did.

If I don't speak to any of my living relatives, does that make me a bad person? Or is that ok?

Breaking the cycle of abuse in my family tree. There won't be any more of "me", and thank god for that.

oh.... Damn, sorry. I'm still waking up to the fact that most people are a lot nicer than my parents are. Sometimes I slip into their habits of knee-jerk attack/response.

Ya I think I'll go for it. Ty all.

At that wage? Haha wow you're a douchebag. Parents pay for your schooling?

I just started working at this ice cream shop part time - and there's this hottie I work with every day. She's my age, likes anime, and she's hilarious.

I've always worked with people way way older than me before, so this has never happened.

hahahhahha!!!!!

why are all the interesting cute girls like this NOT in Tampa?

hottie imo

i'm more worried about dying without having done something notable. newton died alone, and we still talk about what he did.

i think dying only sucks when you die before you could do what you wanted to do.

I liked your profile - but wouldn't do the old "looking for price charming" thing. It makes guys think you want perfection, and thus only people such as myself actually email you.

Hoho!! I demand pics.

solving problems.

Ha! I agree. Someone with perfect skin seems kinda "virgin-esque" to me. I don't like having to explain crappy stuff about life to someone I'm dating that doesn't know.

amphetamine is legal - it's called adderall. anyone who says they get distracted easily gets it.