a baby was thrown out of a car onto the 275 expressway here in tampa today. the police officers that were picking up the pieces were crying as they were doing it.

don't ever intentionally embarrass a human with a job as horrifying as theirs is.

there is no answer?

smile and laugh. let him know it's ok for him to be human too.

That makes no sense to me.

if i feel like i'm losing it and becoming like them, becoming somehow evil... what am i supposed to do?

i talk to police officers and they respond by putting their hands on their guns - like when i ask questions about morality i'm dangerous somehow.

i talk to a psychiatrist and psychologist, and they say they can't talk to me if i can't afford to see them.

i talk to women i date about morality, and they look at me like i'm from another planet, or just ignore the question.

i had a conversation with a woman in a hot tub on a cruise, and she started crying. i don't know why. we were talking about the morality of tipping.

when i do things with a computer, people somehow respect me and treat me well. when i just talk, people seem to pity me. if i don't talk, people avoid sitting near me or making eye contact.

what great secret is there? what basic thing do i not know that everyone else does? someone just tell me. if it is this obvious to everyone, just say it. i'm tired of not knowing.

bounce a rubber ball as i walk down the street or across campus.

sigh...

there are so many messed up kiddie porn sites and scam sites and pyramid scheme people out there, and they're all flush with ill-gotten money.

i can't even steal from those douchebags to pay for my college... i'm not sure i'll ever have enough now working minimum wage jobs.

the world is making less sense to me every day.

Is it ok to steal from them? Lie to them? Take advantage of them?

I'm not sure anyone knows completely who they are. We are all still working it out.

Of course, that might just be me, in which case I'm insane and everyone else isn't.

Touching my skin in a gentle way. Asking about what I'm working on and listening when I explain it (not just smile/nod). Being clear about what you want to do, then using my solution method to do it. Trying the things I suggest at least once. Being honest about what you like and don't like. Explaining human things clearly so I can understand. Not treating me like a child when I ask a childish question.

delete me

delete me

delete me

delete me

Yes. And it was a hard and inhuman life.

Those humans went through hell.

It depends on her and what type of person she is. There is no "best" city.

smart? well mannered? reserved?

I'm deciding if that concept is a worthy one to become, or if avoiding it is better for the type of work I do.

http://www.etronics.com/p-77782-canon-9989a001-canon-pixma-ip1600-inkjet-photo-printer.aspx?dp=F2C20202E6222253A38363E3A3571373637363337313

With shipping, you can get a new one for $50.00

Always evaluate your own time and frustration against the value of the device. Some technology is built to be disposable. Printers are one.

And you would have been bitter, miserable, and treated people badly in relationships.

Don't envy those people too much.

I am wondering how the "house-type" would perform as a computer programmer.