Next Saturday, May 22nd, would have been my 39th anniversary. This is for my Bernie.

Did he know I thought about him when I woke up each morning, as I drifted to sleep each night, and most of the time in between; and that even when I was not consciously thinking about him, I continually sensed the presence of his love within me?

Did he know I used to sit and look at him as he slept, studying the tranquil beauty on his angel's face; and that I said little prayers over him asking that sweet serenity would always grace his countenance?

Did he know I admired the way he cared for his family, friends, and anyone in need, and accepted everyone without judgement or criticism; and that he was my role model for how to treat people?

Did he know he went to places in my heart and mind where no one had ever gone before; and that I exposed the totality of myself - - the good, the bad, and the ugly - - because I had such complete and utter trust in his love for me?

Did he know he was the best friend I ever had, and the bond between us had a depth and breadth that could not be severed by anything less than a mutual decision based on true love at it's most unselfish?

Did he know I loved him profoundly and unconditionally, not just for his manliness, sexiness, or intelligence (all of which I adored), but more for the grace and goodness that defined his essence to me; and that I marveled at how animals, children, and adults (young and old) were drawn to his gentle warmth like flowers to the morning sun?

Did he know I thanked God daily for intersecting the winding roads of our lives so that my life might be forever changed by the touch of his spirit; and that I believed He sent him as an angel to love me, lift me, and lead me to a better place emotionally and spiritually?

And I wonder if he knows that I love him still, not less for the passing of yesterdays without him, but more for knowing what will be missing from all my tomorrows; and that it helps me, when I contemplate the harshness of life in this unyielding world, to remember that out there somewhere is a rare and precious soul - - and he loved me.

Beautiful and moving
You're one lucky Lady

Yes Mary he knew and he still knows today. Love like yours and Bernie's does not end because one of you no longer walks this earth. It is timeless.

Hi Mary. You look great in that cap and gown. I think of you often and our trip to the fair. What a great time.

Mary
That was absolutely beautiful!
Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us.

So nice.

That was beautiful Mary. Even thou I never had a chance of knowing Bernie I feel like I know him through you.
Now ask your self this:
Do you know that he thought of you every night and every morning?

Do you know how much he loved you in return?

Do you know how many times he told his co-workers and friends that he was the luckiest man in the world to have you for a wife?

Do you know you made his life complete?

Do you know how many couples never experience the love that you two had?

Do you know how much all of us have and will be thinking of you this week?
You have become such a dear friend Mary I only wish there was more I could do.

Thank you so much for the wonderful mssage Tim. As we go about our lives as married couples, sometimes we don't always know what the other is really is feeling, it is only after they are gone that we come to know what they really felt. I had so many of his co-workers tell me how much he loved me and his children and that he talked about us all the time and that they could feel his love for all of us.

As I have told you many times, man he spoiled me!!!!! Only after he was gone and I had to do all the small and mundane things that he did so lovingly for me, did I REALLY realize this. Oh I appreciated all that he did for me, but our love was thus that we often did things for each other without expecting gradutitute, we did it out of love. I wish I had told him how much he meant to me more often!!!!

I miss all the small things...the flowers that he saw in a ditch and stopped to pick for me because they were pretty and knew I loved wildflowers, stopping at the store to buy me a nummy because I had a bad day, giving me a giggling clown to make me laugh again after my mom died, joking with me when I was mad until I smiled and laughed, on and on I could go.

To answer your qustions Tim, Yes I do know and miss him so very much. I am one very lucky woman to have had and known that kind of love and devotion. I know that God truely blessed me.

I also know how lucky I am to have you as a friend and appreciate how you always know what to say to lift my heart. God put you in my life I believe for that reason.

I want to also thank all my other wonderful mingle friends that have brought so much joy into my heart. I love you all so very much!

Mary