A few people know about what I've said lately about what's been happening with me and my girlfriend, but I haven't told the entire truth. I need someone's help, though I know I don't deserve it, I would like somebody to open their heart and help me...here's what happened...

My girlfriend's phone has been messing up, so she says, so I've been emailing her and she's emailed back sometimes. I sent her an email and after awhile I was thinking she wasn't getting them (here's where I made the mistake of a lifetime) so I logged into her email to see if she got them (first bad move). She did...

Than, for some divine or hellashis reason I checked the emails she's sent...(Lord forgive me for my foolishness) and there I found one saying to her ex-bf "I want to spend more time with you and possibly start a relationship" -- she sent it Thursday Night.

She called me that night and I confronted her about it (of course she was mad as hell about what I did) and she kept throwing it back in my face saying she may or may not have sent it. I basically begged for forgiveness, and after awhile she just said call me in a few days.

Well, today (that happened last night) she called me, and she said she was thinking about me all day and wanted to talk to me. We talked for awhile, than talked again earlier tonight. After awhile she got mad again and hung up on me. I was so mad I texted her saying we were done, than she calls me back and says she's crying because she never planned on breaking up with me, even though she threatened 3 times to do it last night.

Than we kept talking and I again begged her to let me stay, and after awhile she said we are seperated but not broken up, and 1 week from today we will talk again....that's where we are now.

I find out the reason she's been upset is she feels I've been smothering her and I realize now I have been, but it's my first relationship, I don't know what the hell I'm doing.

This is my first relationship ever, and I am as inexperienced as anybody can be. I am young and so God damn stupid.

I know what I did was bad, very very bad, and I deceited and disrespected her so much by doing it, but the things I found out are almost directly saying she had plans to cheat on me and that she was seeing other guys for at least a few weeks.

I am so f*cked up over this I'm physically ill now...we've only been together 2 months but to me it's been like 2 years...

Please...somebody help me...please...

i didnt even read your entire whine...i mean come on...you invaded her privacy and you deserve what you get....

It's not a whine, it's me telling what happened. Everybody makes mistakes, some people make worse ones than others.

Use peeps gotta stop ritin novels

You sould like my ex. He said he loved me after a week. I hope your not THAT crazy.

Just move on dude..... you can do better. You did some wrong and she did some wrong but in the long run it will only get worse.

you just told everyone that you are a stalker

First of all how old are you?

Why do people want to see private stuff?? Sometimes it means nothing!!

Well welcome to the dating world, it either will work out cause it is suppose to, or it won't cause it ain't, that is all I can say, and since it is your first relationship, relax, you are suppose to make mistakes, as so is she, and their will be more relationships in the future that you will f___ up, we all do it, it is part of the "living and learning" thing, good grief, don't be so hard on yourself!!!!!

takes a minute to meet someone special, week to appreciate them a month to love them and entire life to forget them

I agree...... just party and have some fun

True,
but perhaps he had reason to.
i mean, she was basically cheating
on the poor fellow!


I say you call bullshxt on that
relationship, and yew gtfo of there..
I mean really. You truly can do
better than that.

It feels like a long time, but the longer
you stay wrapped up in her lies,
the worse you'll become.
Promise.

*hug*
It's quite unfortunate, however..

I think the greatest mistake that people make in a relationship is lack of conveying how they feel because they are afraid they will hurt that person. It really is okay to convey how one feels. If I can offer you any advice it would be to be totally open and honest about your feelings (the good and the bad). This is why my marriage failed after 9 years. It was easier to hide her secrets than to confront issues of being hurt. Had I known we probably could have repaired things, but she decided to cheating on me was easier.

As for the prying into her email account. Well, I won't touch that. It seems that you have beaten yourself up already.

Live, learn, and Love. Good luck!

Don't think that this is the end of the rope, even if you break up permanently, your love life is not over; and you will learn from your old relationship what NOT to do in the new ones to come. So take it with a grain of salt, whatever happens, happens, let it go, get back up in the saddle and do it again.

Just remember life is only as bad as you make it, paint a picture in your heart and improve your life to fit that

I'm not making excuses for what I did, I know how bad what I did was, that's not what I'm saying...I'm just trying to get somebody to understand this, not to critcize me for being imperfect.

Why'd she even give someone the password to her email?

i dont care how pitiful someone is there is never no excuse to invade someones privacy..guess im the only one who thinks this way...be a man and talk to her...if she dont want to talk to you and tell you whats up walk away with your dignity

I have to say I disagree that you got what you deserved for snooping. She isn't innocent in all of this either. Emailing her old boyfriend......
Has she been seeing him? She wrote she wanted to see more of him?
If so....move on. If not, give it time. See what happens. But back off a little....you are young, you'll learn!!

to are to young to be having this much drama over a relastionship of only 2 months
and being that it is your first
keep going the way it is and it could screw up the rest of them you have for life
make up your own mind and just find someone eles before you go crazy reguardless of who did what wrong you both f'ed up and the trust is broken
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