Unwrap slowly...contents under pressure

I want to move to the coast. In fact I have been looking for teaching positions but no luck so far. I love the ocean the smell the sound...ahh so nice

How did you get there?
RYHOM

Jezebel

I think its scary how close we all are to being homeless at any time.

In 2002 I was working as a senior engineer making a very comfortable living. Owned a home had a new car and was putting away over $1000 a month in my 401K. Pretty DAMN good for a single African American woman.

Then during a medical leave I get a call, you're part of the companies latest round of layoffs.....craaaappp

I used the unemployment money to go back to school (once again)after a year I got a job in a research lab. Which lead to my current situation..

But what if I didn't have a college degree...or what if my kids were younger...

Its all so tenuous...

Is that the one with Ashton Kutcher?

I really liked that one.

I married a Mr. Wrong then divorced after 10 years(got 3 great kids outa the deal..not so bad). Since then I have kissed a few Mr. Wrongs..your right you have to give them a chance.

Maybe there isn't a Mr. Right but only a Mr. RightNow or a Mr. GoodEnough

I like to stay open to possibilities...not set my expectations then wait around for someone that fulfills them...better to experience what is in front of you...and make the best it

Worth it or not...its the only game in town.

First you have to kiss a lot of Mr. Wrongs for comparison.

I haven't seen that one. I'll have to give it a try.

Well that is certainly a good reason. Hope it works out. And Congrats!

Is that a banana in your pocket or....you know the rest

I'm watching Queer as Folk season 1.

Love it. The characters are so well developed, the acting is great, the one liners are hilarious and....gay sex is HOT.

Gale Harold...yum..

Love the music too.

PRIMER was one of those surprises. It was really good. The story was so interesting that the low budget effect really didn't matter or maybe even added to the story.

I love netflix.
I watched The Machinist
I liked it. Christian Bale gave a disturbing performance.
So use to seeing him as sexy and here he was NOT NOT NOT.

The trick is to find the right one for you. SSRI's didn't work for me but wellbutrin is working great. Prozac gave me a terrible headache, zoloft put me to sleep.

Don't get a prescription from a general practitioner. You need to see a qualified psychiatrist. Talk about your symptoms as honestly and in detail as possible. They need to be able to distinguish between depression, anxiety, bi-polar, personality disorders...etc.

It may take a while to find the right combination of drugs and correct dose,but for me it was worth it.

As a student of neuroscience...I believe in the effectiveness and the science behind antidepressants...

One last thing to think about...is your depression chronic or situational? Treatment for depression following divorce might be different than treatment for the person who can't get out of bed but doesn't know why..


Good luck

A therapist once told me I felt this way because as a child I was not given the opportunity to complete a task... so for example you graduate high school...well on to college...you finish college...well find a job...you find a job...so get a promotion...you get a promotion..so blah blah blah

Never feeling a sense of accomplishment because I was constantly pushed to achieve more.

This rang true for me. It didn't solve my problem. But it did provide some comfort and when I really feel hopelessly lost it helps me to remember to stop and look at what I have accomplished instead of dwelling on what I have yet to do.

Hope you can find some comfort in this as well....keep talking to people around you who provide encouragement..

**cliche warning**
Life is too short to spend it in regret and wanting. Be happy right now with what you have.

I think for something to be purely evil there has to be some kind of malice. Intention to cause hurt or harm without remorse. Following instinct to survive or eat or protect your young would not qualify as evil.

A machine only follows its programming. So those that programmed it are evil. In the case of the terminator movies...hmmm...ultimately that was us...the human animal...

I live in Portland Oregon. The great Pacific Northwest. I like it here because the air is clean, the water is drinkable and its not too crowded. I grew up in southern California..smog...foul water..and overcrowded.

Mountains all around and the beach to the west. Its always green.

It rains and rains and rains I love it. As a matter of fact its raining right now...


Why Nampa Id? I drive through there on my way to Boise to visit my daughter and my new grandson...he's a cutie.

Be careful. You may have to deal with the situation because a person can only take so much and then KAPOW they explode.

If she is nitpicking then tactfully tell her you prefer to learn on your own.
If you need her advice as a new person, ask her to lunch. Honey not vinegar.

Don't let it build till you do something you might regret. Especially if you want to keep that job.

Believe me there are people like her in everything you do and everywhere you go. Let her be a lesson on how to deal with them.