Hmmmmm. So, he couldn't just "man up" and tell you that he was devoting himself to the Army, keeping you from being all down and depressed for the past two weeks? I mean...glad he came and told you, but it still sounds"fishy" to me. But meh...we talked about this Fade, and I am glad that now you know what is going on. But for him to close all means of communication with you? Just doesn't feel right to me babe.

Thanks so much for that hon. I've always had the most respect and admiration for the military but never really in a relationship with a guy that was active.

Well, I guess I'm not in anything now. I think the hardest part was him blowing up the bridge. I have no recourse, no ability to say "Hey" .. or even "I'm praying for you".

I know it's easier on him, and he is the one doing the battles, so I have to think beyond myself.

He thought he was being kind in not wanting me to have a part time BF, but now I have none at all. I seriously want to wait. He's worth it.

You keep him close to your heart, and you pray....And like all the other things that get in our path Judy....We will always be there for each other because thats what BFF's do.

Haha but hey on a lighter note...I live an hour away from Fort Bragg, if you just wanna come stalk him, I'd be down. I got people there. lol

I appreciate that Goof, but honestly I did better not knowing in the sense he was just a jerk in my mind at that point.

And he did "man up" .. He didn't even have to return and tell me.

Now is when I am seriously depressed. Funny eh? And no, if you read his communication, you wouldn't have fish on your mind. Seriously. He is totally sold out to the military. Like married to it.

I respect him so much for that .. but it hurts over here.

Hmmm well this makes his statements to me even more credible then. That's exactly what he said. Exactly.

And that he cared enough for me not to put me in that position. Of being back burner bait.

He truly does live and breathe military. I just wish I'd known just how incredibly sold out he was yanno?

Woulda guarded my heart more.

LMAO .. you actually made me smile. I only live 30 min from Fort Carson. He will be there end of next month and then on and off til he relocates to Bragg in May/June.

That's what's so hard. We were supposed to at least have that time while he's on and off here.

Thanks Debbie .. I know. I know.

And that's cool that he is into the military like that. I respect that. Yeah...knowing the truth makes it harder, but the not knowing (when it happened) hurt so much that all you really wanted was to know why. Yeah...it is strange how that all works out. In time, you will feel better. But, it sucks right now. But hey...you have great friends babe...and a great family. I know you will be okay. Goof wuvs ya.

Well I am sorry people...But I am the child of a father that devoted his life to the military and was married to my mom since he enlisted and never left until the day she died. So I disagree it can work....The commitment and the standing behind your man has to be huge.


I don't want negative nelly's here....she needs lifting up and friends gathered around showing support and love, not judgement or ridicule.....tyvm

I know baby, I know. And that's EXACTLY why I shared the thing deepest in my heart. Because I knew I would find the strength and hope to move forward.

Sometimes you gotta wonder maybe it was for the best NOT to know. But I do respect him so much more for that.

I'll give you a call after 9 tonight or tomorrow .. my mins are all gone .. wonder why. LOL

(((judy)))) sweets, I have a feeling once he is settled into SF he will call on you again.

ya! If you ever need to talk, you know where my email box is!

Thanks Debbie. You know I really really tried to convince him of that. The strong supportive woman behind him.

But the LTR was not what he knew he could do. As you and I talked, if me being in his life took him off focus just one minute, for a mission that was life-threatening then I want to be over here just wishing I was there.

I don't ever want to make him stumble. Ever.

(((Judy))) I hate this has happened to you. Stay strong!

(( tonya )) you know I so appreciate that .. and I hope to God you are right.

But if he won't even meet me now, before he goes in .. *sigh* well, again I just hold onto any hope, any hope.

He truly was one of a kind.

i dont enen know who you are,,and that hurts.. but im just a big ol softy... really sounds like he his playin games which in the end broke your heart.. if he really cared for you he would have made it work.... i wish you the best of luck.. when one door closes another one opens up

I appreciate your post, and I know you mean well, but I know games were not on his agenda. Only I can actually know that though, since I am the one who had heart to hearts with him.

He truly is an incredible guy. I have been played before, and I believe at this point in my life I know the difference.

A player would never have returned. And he could have met me, we could have had 'our time, our intimacy' and I would be left with a broken heart worse than now.

He's been in that before. Where he and the other person got hurt, because he believe LTR is not ever going to be in his future. He is sparing me. That's HUGE really. A player would be all about what he could get. That's it.

Thank you though.

Thanks Perry.

Maybe check out special forces on google...It's not that easy....and honestly you don't have a clue..not that your not entitled to your opinion because you are. But this is much ore complicated then just the love of an average soldier...He is not that. And I have read some of his e-mails and I can say he is more man then anyone I have ever me online or in life... He truly represents the best of the best in our military.....And I am proud that Judy found this one. And I hope she never stops praying that the Lord put on his heart the same.

Thanks Debbie. This is why I hesitated to put my story on here. Because I know people don't know him, his heart or the situation.

For goodness sake. He could easily have played along, had someone to talk to online, for his remaining month over there, come back and ravaged me for his on/off time here before going to Bragg.

He took the high road. He knows he's called to a 'high purpose' and sees himself as a warrior. I agree with you Debbie. His spirit and character is amazing. He is incredibly loved as a medic over there (his 3rd tour of duty) and I see why.

And I suddenly 'get' it. They need him even MORE than I need to need him. It's all about letting him go. I am the one who has to straighten up and fly right. Seriously.