I will reply to the original poster, Morena 350. The other posts are
just that, posts. Anyway, we all look for love in different ways. In
today's world, women in their 40's/50's/60's believe they can have a
boyfriend then have a couple of sweet (and i mean very sweet) men on the
side. It is called an awakening with counselors. Now, if that happens
to a man, it is called a midlife crisis. So bias is our counseling we so
well deserve. Anyway, it is okay to call people and talk to them as
long as you (I mean male and female both) are not committed to someone
else. What is committement you ask? That is for you to decide but if
you have slept with them, you are committed (if that means a mental
ward, then check in). We are all here to find love and if we have
already found it, we must be looking for friends but I disagree with
that altogether. Have a great day!
Ed

Everyone is lovable. Sometimes the other person isn't truthful or
doesn't know how to say this is it after the big bang. Of course,
sometimes it occurs before the big bang because they don't have the
energy to work on a relationship to get there. My advise is to hang in
there, be patient and what you seek will come to you without you looking
for it. But beware, it may take time. As for me, I have time and I
don't mind. The circumstances will see fit to come together for what I
am after.
Good Luck!
Ed

Take a deep breath, slow way down and watch MAD-TV, that should
straighten you out.

oh, thank you Gypsy41, for thinking it was a nice poem...

Feels somewhat good that it wasn't me.... thanks for looking into it
Ed

I do know that but everytime I go to the poetry section, Gypsy41 and try
to post, it automatically posts to general discussion, go figure.
Earlier today, i was able to post to the poem section. What gives?
Ed

well, i went to that forum to post and you know what, it posted to
general discussion. Earlier today i was able to post to the poem
section. tonight it won't let me. hope you can help

Taking away the stones


It has many stones,

Hardened through the years.

They say that if care is taken

The stones will disappear.

Many people question

Many people ask

What is it that is inside

That we might want to see?

It beats to the blood that

Pumps through your veins.

Some say it will take a chisel

Others want to use a drill.

But it really doesn’t matter,

For you see, it’s my will.

The rocks will remain

Until another can see

That it only takes love

For the stones to disappear.

Life's Riches
Soft breeze blowing strong within a strange faraway land

Lonely woman with child, dust coated, clasps her hands

Sitting silently on dirt covered brick as humans run pass

Life it seems is too commonly always separated by class

Close by an empty tarnished cup, her smile has long faded

Dark, the poverty of her body covered in rags, with hatred

Naked child smiling with innocence of peace deep within

Not yet knowing the evil of people that hastily removes a grin

Tears slowly trace through from the corner of her lovely eyes

Flowing softly forming mud which is mixed with landing flies

Staring at passersby, her heart hardened in stone by the years

Child laughing, starving, has not encountered the terrible fears

Hoping, she is, for enough money given to buy only some food

No alcohol involved with this one you see, yet others are rude

Poor, desolate, falling, failing, trying to escape to make sense

Everyday the same thing, every year that goes by begging for cents
Forty Baht (one dollar) enough to buy bread and water for the day
Yet each person passes not caring, not looking, walking quickly away
No end in sight of everlasting misery you see, for us humans began
Poverty, divided by class, causing the collapse nearing the end.

Path Taken?

Soft summer breeze on the Ocean shore,

Figure sitting on rock in the moon's twilight.

Waves’ splashing as water hits the sand floor,

Seagulls spread their wings and take flight.

Lonely, the figure is, yet thinking of the past,

Quiet is the night except for creatures nearby.

Explosions in the mind, thoughts compelling will last,

Consciously wondering, shuffling dreams asking why?

Decisions once made through life the reason here,

Figure stares at horizon, former years are dead.

Knowing the future, what's in store, the figure fears?

Mixed emotions, silent throbbing, walls in the head.

Yes, at the crossroads of which lengthy path to take,

Contemplating well into the night as it lives on.

Dressed in black, eyes dull, is everything around fake?

Hours pass, the dark figure still haven't the urge to be gone,

Choice now chosen, will it be alright or all in vain?

From behind, Dawn casts long shadows on deep blue,

Tears flow freely from the figure, reality present pain.

Slowly rising up will eternity come suddenly unglued?

Heaven, Hell, Stars, Sun, Earth, Moon or Idol faith chosen,

Leading to somewhere/nowhere, new beginning interwoven.

She Came From Heaven

We met over a cup of coffee
Her beauty came from inside
It only took one look to know
This woman who came from Heaven!

She said she came from somewhere local
But I knew she was beamed from the stars
To hold her lovingly in my arms again
This woman who came from Heaven!

We spent time together enjoying each other
We laughed, we smiled, her eyes so bright
We talked of the past as we moved forward
This woman who came from Heaven!

I will never know another like her
Her place has been set in my heart
To forget her would be a tragedy
This woman who came from Heaven!

Her spell still holds a place in my heart
I have never met another like her
To think we met online is so unreal
This woman who came from Heaven!

As time passed, it was time to move on
Life catching up with weekend getaways
Her Auburn hair lighting up the sky
This woman who came from Heaven!

Words left unsaid or not saying words at all
Communication break down brings an end
Life surprises with negative thoughts
This woman who came from Heaven!

To know her again would be a blessing
Yet to remember what we had means more
I will never forget what she gave me
This woman who came from Heaven!

When?
Into the recesses of the night, Patience waits

With each passing second dreams arrive.

Fantasies of love deep within the mind creates

Thoughts drifting, moving seemingly alive.

Slowly time slides forward dripping sweat

Forming rivers as the heat of passion enters.

Total Being caught, two souls have met

Scurrying about, escaping the soul comes critters.

Shadows reflecting from the light of the moon

Conscious craving running as waves hit rock.

Breaking the innermost feeling of the glum

Searching out anticipation, the darkness will mock.

The tick of the clock, each breath has a long pause

Beauty erupts seeing, glowing, madness, bizarre?

Wanting, the souls are to reunite without a flaw

Causing affection that is within the shores of Venus and Mars.

Now the moment comes forth, patience stays so strong

Kiss on the lips, soft, silky, tongues intertwine.

Future coming forth holding on that nothing goes wrong

Crawling, traveling patience in the air all will be

fine.

The Beginning

Now that you have my interest,
Now that I am ready to give up my heart,
Now that I feel my mind coming undone,
Now that I am ready to unleash my soul,
Now that I am chipping down the walls,
Now that I feel deep within a new love,

Promise that it is more than sexual,
Promise that it is within your heart,
Promise that it's within your soul,
Promise that one day the walls will fall,
Promise that it's more than love.

Whisper that it is more than romance in the air,
Whisper that reality is the beat of your heart,
Whisper that your mind is coming undone,
Whisper that you’re unleashing your soul,
Whisper that your walls are falling down,
Whisper that you feel more than love as I do,

Let us together find an inner peace, if we dare.

Penguin

Young boy sitting innocently in his 5th Grade class,

Male teacher calls out the young boy's given name.

Go to the boiler room, It will be such a fun blast!

Young boy rises, with tears, he knows the weird games.

Trying to recall the minutes that were played there,

He only remembers ugly hugs the teacher gives.

Dark clouds block the mind, boy asks, "Is it fair?”

The penguin, teacher called, sick life he lives.

"What happened in the room?” silently the boy asks,

The stage set for the future, is definitely in the bag.

Longing desire to seek out the honest truth lasts,

Now, young man marries a young girl, he is no hag!

Inner dreams, sick perverted years have been spent,

Male classmate lives parallel life in a similar twirl.

Both men become older ahead the years are sent,

Life, speeding quickly ahead, like a tornado’s whirl,

Marriages end in divorce, same evil casts a spell.

Disconnected reality, sick fantasies they do reign,

One man, young boy in class, trying to escape hell.

Did he really love her or just cause her much pain?

Young boy overcomes sickness remembering the games,

Sets out to conquer Satan's angels the body within.

What happened in boiler room goes up in red flames,

New mind, New Soul, It is time for life to begin!

Who knows? Why is the gaming world selling their products showing what
they will run on as a minimum requirement, then the games don't even
work if you are not using at least the recommended requirements?

My son who will be 26 on Friday was born with Spina Bifida and he has
had to use a wheelchair as his transportation throughout life. He is
small just 4'10" but he really can't straighten out completely.
However, he has met numerous girlfriends, even though sometimes he has
to be patient and wait in between, and had them over for a weekend or go
to their house as long as he had a ride (He doesn't drive). I've been
very impressed with how caring some of his girlfriends have been. Yes,
he has had his heart broken but it doesn't stop him from trying again.

Vista Ultimate runs great on the system I built last year (4gb ram, AMD
dual core cpu, 2 x 512 mb sli vcs). It is also running great on a cheap
system I built for a couple hundred dollars that has 2 gb ram, 256 mb
AGP vc. As cheap as ram is why would you want to try to run it on 1 gb
ram?

In my case I have never been to a doctor or have I been diagnosed as
being depressed/bipolar. However, throughout my teenage years, into my
twenties, thirties and early 40's, I would go through very high and very
low times. The depression lasted longer than feeling happy. Throughout
that part of my life, I considered suicide even to the point of planning
it out but never carrying it through several times over. My conscious
overrode my mind at those points and I would shake in fear to go through
with it. However, about 4 years ago, it all reversed. I try to analyze
it but can only find a few reasons things changed around for me. I did
go through a devasting divorce 7 years ago and while I was in the
country of Qatar, a doctor prescribed prozac. I had to quit taking it
because it made all my stresses/problems disappear. Deep down, I know I
had to deal with them so I quit taking the medication. For myself, I
did use faith to help me heal and I still do. But all the previous
thoughts I had of suicide has since vanished. I am thankful for each day
I awake. Now, most days are positive and happy. Very seldom do I have a
depressing day or period of time. When I do, it isn't as a deep
depression as I felt years ago that haunted me daily. However, tonight,
I am slightly depressed and at those times, I do feel like sharing. I'm
sure this won't help anyone but it does help me by getting it out in the
open. Anyway, the only thing I can think that happened was I began
having a positive outlook on life even if something negative happened to
me, I would find the positive from it. Whether that was it or I simply
out grew it, I don't know but I look forward to growing older each day.
Thanks for listening....

Yelm

I am using Windows Vista Ultimate Edition 64 bit. I love it. There are
ways to install it for free but that's a topic for another day. I work
with Solaris Unix Servers in my career but with the new Windows Vista
Ultimate OS, it is great on my home computer. The interface is very
user friendly. First operating system from Microsoft you actually don't
have to wait for SP 2 (i.e. XP) to come out to make it function
correctly.