I guess you are offended. Oh, well.

JB, I don't need you to make me question my beliefs. I am not a robot, I am a human being. Fine, you think I live a fantasy life? That's my problem. I NEED to believe! You know what you are doing. I am not an idiot. Like I said on previous posts. I have gone to Wiccan ceremonies and such for various reasons. But, none to make them question their beliefs. You don't have to agree. Just talk to people. Gheez, this world can be so demanding and ugly. I come to a Christian forum to talk nice. The conversation does not have to be about faith, but it is my choice other than: let's say: " My booty call last night and such,,," I have seen the ugliest things in life and so have many other people on this forum. Peace for once....PLEASE! I miss my husband in California. Everytime I get back from a deployment is he leaving for his. I worry about him so much and I get so lonely. I am a truck driver and he is a pilot. I need to trust that God will take care of him. I need to believe that all this will end good. I just want a normal life. I think I live in Iraq more than here. In fact, that is the case. I pray every night. I should not have tried to committ suice upon my last return. I was a lost soul. I pray for Gods forgiveness everyday. This sounds silly, but to pay Him back I have adopted an abused dog, I am fostering a kitty cat and I am volunteering at the Salvation Army. I don't pat myself on the back....I just need redemption from God. Please let me have that JB.

I have defended JB numerous times. Then, I come back online and it sounds like she is Christian bashing. I am not sure why she is here. Like I said, maybe she is just curious. But, I have non-religious friends that I have seen get on these forums just to irritate people. They think it is amusing. I have friends of all sorts of faiths, but I would never go onto their forums unless I was there to educate myself on their beliefs. That does not mean I will believe what they do, but I will have a better understanding. I was irritated because I defended her and then she sounded like some of my friends. By the way, I have told them it is not amusing and they should just listen to some music or something while they are drinking if they are that freakin bored. I don't hate JB though, just irritated.

JB is VERY interested in Christianity. I see her alot on this site. Why would someone come here to irritate,unless their real purpose for being here was to find out why some are able to have so much faith and she cannot? It is a sad excistence to think that this is all there is to life. I know that no matter how hard things may seem on Earth, at the end I will spend eternity surrounded by love and happiness.

kumbaya my lord kumbaya ....



what the hell does kumbaya mean anyway?

"the commitment that makes the two of you one"

What are some helpful habits you can begin to develop that will help you honor that commitment?

I strongly believe I would rather have a friend who is spiritually honest than fanatically religous. You know the type, my way or the highway.

I'm an ogre.

All that my co-workers want to do is dive, eat, have sex and play ... not that that is a bad set of objectives, but it does make me jealous that I can only manage two out of those four at anyone time!!!

Oh Im real consistant!!
I have only seen them play once and that was at Wembley in London.

So, I am a long distance fan.



All that my co-workers want to do is dive, eat, have sex and play ... not that that is a bad set of objectives, but it does make me jealous that I can only manage two out of those four at anyone time!!!

I cant help it!! I live 5000 miles away in the middle of nowhere.

Although for work, I do get to swim with Egyptian Dolphins

A hard life as a diving instructor

1) Why did God create Satan?
2) Why would God let Satan slither up to these dopey idiots in the first place.
3) If God is omnipotent, why did he not see this coming?
4) So if the Canaanites were produced on the 6th day and Tweedledum and Tweedledumber were on day seven,why do we say Adam was the world's first man?
5) Why are giants being allowed to walk the earth, when obviously the Miami Dolphins should be given precedence?

How can an emotionally devastated 12 yr old be in control of what happens anoasis? How much control can they have when they are left to deal with getting over that kind of trauma with no outside help.
You always hear, time heals everything, but that isn't true. Believe me it isn't.
Sure I dealt with it and survived, but it was at a cost. I became cold and emotionally detached, reckless and uncaring. It affected every aspect of my life and governed every decision I made for years to come. I cared not what happened to me and even less about what happened to those around me. Holidays were dreaded and the problems became worse at those times.
As time went on I became better at incorporating my emotions and psychological scars into a norm. A norm that I held on to and used to cope day to day, year to year.
My tribulations became me and I became them! I grew to enjoy hurting like a heroin addict enjoys the high. I reveled in my anger and determined it a necessity.
I grew comfortable with it and mastered it like a chess champion masters the game.

Later, 10 yrs ago or so, I witnessed and experienced a few things which changed my hate for god to understanding, but I am who I am because of my 25 year journey and I can never change that!

Ok, I will leave now, and not bother yall again, but JB asked and I tried to explain how one can hate God!

We are defined by our trials and tribulations!