Well even though this is called mingleAA I still will talk. So, I just got back from my second NA meeting today. Picked up a white Key Chain (Just For Today) this morning. And the second meeting made me realize not only is this gonna be harder than i really thought(but there from the start I not giving addiction the credit it deserves) but I also realize that this is completely possible. The first time I got clean it was not really through trying it just happened and all of the sudden i was at 2 years. Yeah, same on me for ever thinking it was that easy. But now 2 years is a long way off but in 2 years from today hopefully I can stand up in a meeting and Say "Hi my name is Stephen and I'm an addict, celebrating 2 years clean today..."

bluesunflower- i make her drive her butt to memphis so we can talk in person and not just on the phone like every night...

WELCOME!!!

I did so well for so long w/out any help just not doing it but I've learned w/out the support and constantly being around it eventually it gets to us. and it was damn near like picking up where i left off different drugs different problems, but trying to find the same answer that i realize was never the right answer

just a bit (actually wearing an MC shirt right now listning to MC)

"Tommorrow"-Sixx AM

Where ya gonna be tomorrow?
How ya gonna face the sorrow?
Where ya gonna be when you die?
'Cause nothing's gonna last forever
And things they change like the weather
They're gone in the blink of an eye

Just look at yourself, can you see where you are?
Look at yourself, now you can't hide the scars
Just look at yourself 'cause there's nowhere to go
And you know

Tomorrow
You're gonna have to live with the things you say
Tomorrow
You'll have to cross bridges that you burned today
Tomorrow...
And everything you do, it's coming back for you
You'll never outrun what waits for you
Tomorrow.

And are you terrified by sadness
And have you given into madness
You're running out of places to hide
'Cause everybody's got a reason
To justify how they're feelin'
Maybe you should open your eyes

Just look at yourself, do you like what you see?
Look at yourself, is this how it should be?
Just look at yourself, 'cause there's nowhere to go
And you'll know

Tomorrow
You're gonna have to live with the things you say
Tomorrow
You'll have to cross bridges that you burned today
Tomorrow...
And everything you do, it's coming back for you
You'll never outrun what waits for you
Tomorrow.

Are you waiting for the reason to change?
Are you waiting for the end, has it came?
Nothing's gonna stand in your way...

Just look at yourself, do you like what you see?
Look at yourself, is this how it should be?

Tomorrow
You're gonna have to live with the things you say
Tomorrow
You'll have to cross bridges that you burned today
Tomorrow...
And everything you do, it's coming back for you
You'll never outrun what waits for you
Tomorrow.

Oh, yeah i deffinately realise that stopping use is just one of many things that has to change for everything to truly change.

Just got my white key tag. First NA meeting. Gotta long road ahead, just gotta put myself in positive places with positive people.

ME and some buddies were at Buffalo Wild Wings and were screwing with the waitress and told her we played football for the florida gators and set up a fake call to my cell and I acted like it was Tim Tebow telling me that Irvin Myer (the coach) wanted to see me as soon as i returned to florida cuz i was seen passed out on campus over night after a party..

Was 2 1/2 years clean until this past weekend let stress get me and handled it the wrong day. So, back at day 5

Metallica-Fight Fire With Fire

Do unto others as they've done to you
But what the hell is this world coming to?

Blow the universe into nothingness
Nuclear warfare shall lay us to rest

Fight fire with fire
Ending is near
Fight fire with fire
Bursting with fear
We all shall die

Time is like a fuse, short and burning fast
Armageddon is here, like said in the past

Fight fire with fire
Ending is near
Fight fire with fire
Bursting with fear


Soon to fill our lungs the hot winds of death
The gods are laughing, so take your last breath

Fight fire with fire
Ending is near
Fight fire with fire
Bursting with fear

Fight fire with fire x8
Fight!

Amazing...Sadly many addicts (myself included was clean 2+ years and sadly relapsed a few days ago) fail to see anything but the next score and don't realise the tole they are taking on those around them....

Dream Theatre w/ Dave mustain and others -Cemetary gates (pantera)

Have you ever been in a place of mind or emotion when you feel like a song was written just for you at that time? Well, right now (this week) I feel that Nikki Sixx new that in 2009 there would be a kid in Memphis with a big ole bunch of crap on his plate and that the song Home Sweet Home would be the one thing that got into my head and help to discern things...

What songs have touched you and your life in pivotal moment or just day in and day out???

Oooo, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
One Time
Oooo, yeah,Oooooooo
We could sail away
Or catch a freight train
Or a rocketship into outer space
Nothin' left to do
Too many things were said
To ever make it feel
Like yesterday did

Seasons must change
Separate paths, separate ways
If we blame it on anything
Let's blame it on the rain

I knew it all along
I'd have to write this song
Too young to fall in love
Guess we knew it all along

That's alright, that's okay
We were walkin' through some youth
Smilin' through some pain
That's alright, that's okay
Let's turn the page

My friends called today
Down from L.A.
They were shooting pool all night
Sleeping half of the day
They said I could crash
If I could find my own way
I told them you were leaving
On a bus to go away

That's alright, that's okay
We were two kids in love
Trying to find our way
That's alright, that's okay
Held our dreams in our hands
Let our minds run away
That's alright, now that's okay
We were walkin' through some youth
Smilin' through some pain
That's alright, let's turn the page
And remember what I say girl
And it goes this way

Girl, don't go away mad
Girl, just go away
Girl, don't go away mad
Now girl, just go away
Here we go

Don't go away mad
I don't want you to stay, Yeah
Come on, girl

Come on, baby
I'll say it one more time

Girl, don't go away mad
Girl, just go away
Girl, don't go away mad
Girl, just go away yeah, yeah
Girl, don't go away mad
Girl, just go away, Yeah
Now I said girl, don't go away mad
Girl, just go away
Now I said girl, don't go away mad
Girl, just go away, yeah
Girl, don't go away mad
Girl, just go away...

damn i like a girl that will just take turns playing a game with me, if it ain't 2 player...

My best friend is a girl and our relationship is,always has been, and always will be completely platonic...

Adema-Nutshell (originally Alice in Chains)
Stained-Nutshell (originally Alice in Chains)
Metallica-Whiskey in The Jar

GOOD NIGHT!!!!!!