Not really what I was asking but thanks?

Post lyrics to a song that I was really into would I have to be in a certain mindset? I mean if I was to post a song on here that I liked for umpteenth amount of reasons and it just so happened to talk about death.. Would I be flooded with e-mails involving ways to get help?


Now what if I posted lyrics dealing with love.. Would I have to be in love to post it? It's the same thing.. My friend just kind of pi$$ed me off earlier because I posted lyrics to a song.. Granted I felt blah that night but I've posted things about love and everything else under the sun... Why should I have to censor myself?

WOOT! That'll be awesome! Have fun! They were in GR on my b-day last year but couldn't afford the tickets

[Gunshot]
[Operator:] Suicide Hotline, may I help you?
[Violent J:] Yeah... Uhh... Well I'm about to ****ing kill myself...
[Operator:] Listen you don't want to do that, OK? You don't want to do that.
[Violent J:] I'm gonna... eh... There's so many ****ing reasons why I don't even need to be here anymore.
[Operator:] There's no reason
[Violent J:] I'm gonna put a slug in my ****ing head!
[Operator:] You don't want to do that, you want to be here on Earth, OK?
[Violent J:] **** that **** man! I got a gun right now.
[Operator:] Put it away
[Violent J:] ...and I got it right under my chin, man, **** that!
[Operator:] Take it away from your chin.
[Violent J:] I'm gonna blow my head all over the ****ing ceiling
[Operator:] No you're not, OK?
[Violent J:] **** this **** man...
[Operator:] Just talk to me, OK?

It ain't no point to me waking up,
Everybody's time I'm taking up,
I got nobody, it ain't a shoulder near,
I can't stay here & it's colder there,
I don't wanna look back 'cause it's gonna hurt,
I slice my wrist & it's gonna squirt,
For me everybody holds a hate,
I get backstabbed & everybody holds the stake,
It's no roads to take, I'm in a circle drive,
Busting at myself & I'm trying to survive,
I'll disappoint you, & I will let you down,
And I ain't got many home boys coming around,
You don't understand, so don't say you do,
I swear I'll put a mother****ing slug in you,
I'm the only one,
The lonely one,
At home alone loading a gun, thinking "Why not?"

"Why not? Why would you wanna die?
Okay, you have feelings inside your head, okay?
I understand that feelings lead to depression
When you have depression, you have a lonely void inside of your heart, okay?
And your heart means everything to the world, okay?"

I got court coming up, I stole a truck.
I got a ***** pregnant & I'm broke as ****,
I wanna get high but I got piss test,
I'm always first name on top of the **** list,
Get this, the witch has made my chest
It's permanent nightly visiting nest,
It ain't no clothes that I look good in,
I'm the mother****ing big red train that couldn't,
I got no family, I stole they ****,
Restraining orders & I still won't quit,
I hit rock bottom & then I fell in a hole
And then I fell through the floor of that hole some more,
I been missing for a year, nobody's looking,
I got beat down & my **** tooken,
I look ahead & all I see is more of the same,
Or this self-inflicted bullet hole pouring my brain

"Ooooooookay, I understand that you're in pain, okay?
I understand everything you're going through
I've been there myself, okay?
Now, your pain is my pain,
Alright? And I feel your pain, and I wanna be your friend
Just me and you, friends"

I dream about cutting heads off with a shovel,
The dreams are getting serious, think I'm in trouble,
I don't hold memory for more than an hour,
I'm tired as **** & I'm drained of power,
I ain't half way there & I'm all out of time,
I'm like a crushed light bulb, all out of shine,
I've been around the world but no place is home,
I wanna see the other side when I face this chrome,
I'm butt naked, I've been jacking off, getting drunk,
It's my last hours alive, who gives a ****?
It don't matter,
I'm doing the **** in the garage,
Trying to make it easier for them to clean my head splaage,
This ***** I loved, I hope she finds me,
Still up in the chair with my thoughts behind me
I'm about to do it,
[Beep]
Can you hold for a second?

[Operator:] Wait a min!

[Violent J:] Hello?
[Girl:] Hey what's up?
[Violent J:] Where you at?
[Girl:] Right down the street?
[Violent J:] With who?
[Girl:] My girl Shannon, we were wondering if we could stop by
[Violent J:] Well **** yeah... com'on... bye
[Girl:] Really?
[Violent J:] Yeah hey...
[Girl:] I know bring some blunts
[Violent J:] Uh huh, alright, bye

[Priest leading in "Lord's Prayer":]
So we pray, our father Lord be together.
Amen.

Want me to shoot the bastard?

I know what your sayin'. The best way is to just not think about it. I know it's horrible advice but if you think about it your going to start picking apart everything and cause it to fail. If you leave it alone.. Well it could work out.. But, on the other hand if your gut's telling you to get the hell out.. Then get the hell out lol

Fair enough... Never said y'all *redneck term because god forbid I say you guys, and everyone knows you ladies sounds odd* anyways, never said you didnt exsist lol. Just said my searches are turning up nothing but

Yeah that would be differant.. But seeing as how it's a first impression online.. Don't get me wrong someone has kids awesome. I love kids.. Sh*t I worked at Build A Bear workshop for that very reason. I've just had enough relationships go blah.. Both parties have been hurt.. I'd hate to bring a kid into that too.

LOL yeah.. It's not a big deal if it's not shoved down my throat.. But, god seems if they arent baby mama's then they're saying in big bold letters how much they love jesus.. And, that's awesome if that's what you want to believe. If you want to believe in buddah, allah, whatever.. I don't care lol

God.. I hope I'm not mother material haha. Oh yeah.. Workin out wonderful.. I'm only here for the forums anyways haha

Lower my standards ok not standards but I'm not sure the right word.. Not a fan of baby mama drama because I don't have kids, I want kids.. Just want my kids? I dunno.. I guess I have the biggest prob with that because it seems everyone I look at has kids.. The whole god/jesus thing isn't so bad but since I'm more agnostic than anything.. That wouldnt work out too well.. C'mon why is it so effin difficult lol

umm.. ha?

lol yeah you weren't supposed to read it

Lately I’ve been afraid
Of all of the things
I might not obtain.
By no means am I afraid of dying.
That’s one of the only things you have to do.
I’ve bleed for people
For no reason
Cried alone
For the same persons
Drank myself stupid
Why
I’m afraid I’ll never get the chance
To be the father and husband
I’ve always wanted to be.
That I’ll die alone
Somewhere before I’m thirty
Not even by my own hand
Some freak accident maybe?
A shot to the head in a far off land?
Or a knife in an alley for my wallet.
It doesn’t really matter.
Why
I just don’t care.


DY
12-3-08

It was on another dating site but uh sure? lol

Yeah that one made me laugh and I saw the humor in that one.. She had so many differant variations of sex/sexual acts I'm like damn woman is that all your about?!?!

2. Sex isn't always love-making to me. Sometimes its just wild, sweaty monkey ****ing. It's cool.
7. I don't wear grannie panties
8. I am curvalicious!
13. I will scratch your back (in and out of the shower)
14. I will not move into your apartment the first chance I get
15. Like you, I am scared of commitment
19. I have all my shots
25. I will sneak out of the bed and brush my teeth before you get up so we can have hygienic morning sex. (I might drop a mint into yours. don't choke)
36. I like drunk sex
37. I watch Family Guy, Simpsons & American Dad
38. I have been in a protest
42. I will love your penis
43. I always smell good. (well almost)


*OK I lied... I couldn't stand to put any more up... These were a few of the ones that made me laugh*

Me too lol. Dates are aqward

LMAO my friend said somethin like that on mon lol. Happy b-day man! Hope you get as drunk if not more drunk than I did on mine

Fair enough haha