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Topic: What r u thinking about right now?? - part 65
Totage Joined Sat 10/13/07 Posts: 24210	Sun 09/09/18 05:34 PM
I'm thinking about ways to kill myself, which is oddly comforting. I'm not going to actually go through with killing myself, but it does comfort me to know that I have that option. We all have options... choice is a great thing isn't it? It comforts me to know that you aren't actually going to go through with it. Yea that's kinda where I find comfort in it. It's my choice and if I really want out, I can, but some how I always wake up to a new day, so I must enjoy the fight in some way, regardless of how my mind wants to make me think I feel. No need to call any numbers or anything. It's not something most would understand. I know it's not normal to find comfort in it. At this point, I don't fight the thoughts and urges, I just figure out how to work with them, so instead of being tormented, I found a way for them to bring comfort. It's not that I actually want to go through with it. It's just my minds way of saying, I'm stressed and need an escape. Same with thoughts and urges to drink or use drugs. Although I do give in to the urge to smoke a cigarette or cigar, but that's not bad considering what I could be using. Caffeine and nicotine are really the only drugs I use anymore. Rarely I'll take an aspirin or ibuprofen, but even try to avoid that anymore. I'm thinking I might need a nice dog. I want to wait until I have my kids back first and let them pick the dog out, make sure it's a good fit for us.

Riverspirit1111 Joined Wed 06/27/18 Posts: 100738	Sun 09/09/18 05:44 PM
I'm thinking about ways to kill myself, which is oddly comforting. I'm not going to actually go through with killing myself, but it does comfort me to know that I have that option. We all have options... choice is a great thing isn't it? It comforts me to know that you aren't actually going to go through with it. Yea that's kinda where I find comfort in it. It's my choice and if I really want out, I can, but some how I always wake up to a new day, so I must enjoy the fight in some way, regardless of how my mind wants to make me think I feel. No need to call any numbers or anything. It's not something most would understand. I know it's not normal to find comfort in it. At this point, I don't fight the thoughts and urges, I just figure out how to work with them, so instead of being tormented, I found a way for them to bring comfort. It's not that I actually want to go through with it. It's just my minds way of saying, I'm stressed and need an escape. Same with thoughts and urges to drink or use drugs. Although I do give in to the urge to smoke a cigarette or cigar, but that's not bad considering what I could be using. Caffeine and nicotine are really the only drugs I use anymore. Rarely I'll take an aspirin or ibuprofen, but even try to avoid that anymore. I'm thinking I might need a nice dog. I want to wait until I have my kids back first and let them pick the dog out, make sure it's a good fit for us. Thinking I can identify with that and understand probably more than you might think or more than most would. Keep on keeping on!

Toodygirl5 Joined Fri 10/26/12 Posts: 14448	Sun 09/09/18 05:53 PM Edited by Toodygirl5 on Sun 09/09/18 06:33 PM
Had Great Day! Friend couple called came from out of town to meet for dinner. They live 40 miles East of me. Great dinner and visit !!

Narlycarnk Joined Fri 10/28/16 Posts: 814	Sun 09/09/18 06:36 PM
Suicide is the leading cause of death in college students. So saddening

Riverspirit1111 Joined Wed 06/27/18 Posts: 100738	Sun 09/09/18 06:39 PM
Suicide is the leading cause of death in college students. So saddening Yes it is very sad I lost my son to that twelve years ago.

Stu Joined Sun 07/23/17 Posts: 22537	Sun 09/09/18 06:41 PM
Suicide is the leading cause of death in college students. So saddening Yes it is very sad I lost my son to that twelve years ago.

Totage Joined Sat 10/13/07 Posts: 24210	Sun 09/09/18 07:07 PM
I'm thinking this place needs some happy thoughts.

Queenie Joined Thu 04/26/18 Posts: 16001	Sun 09/09/18 07:14 PM
Suicide is the leading cause of death in college students. So saddening Yes it is very sad I lost my son to that twelve years ago. I lost my best friend

LegitGuy Joined Sat 09/20/14 Posts: 63	Sun 09/09/18 07:15 PM
college

pumpilicious 💕 Joined Thu 04/26/18 Posts: 10301	Sun 09/09/18 08:07 PM
Wondering about all the randoms, if any one of them are real...

Unknow Joined Mon 11/05/07 Posts: 64077	Mon 09/10/18 09:29 AM
Im thinking... Id like to find a local honest mechanic who works for themselves.. Within a 10 mile radius in case the car wont make it... laughing

Totage Joined Sat 10/13/07 Posts: 24210	Mon 09/10/18 09:57 AM
THIS interview I actually want and hope it goes well. lol

Riverspirit1111 Joined Wed 06/27/18 Posts: 100738	Mon 09/10/18 11:15 AM
Thinking happy thoughts

pumpilicious 💕 Joined Thu 04/26/18 Posts: 10301	Mon 09/10/18 11:27 AM
THIS interview I actually want and hope it goes well. lol Good luck on the interview, I hope you get it!

d__u__b Joined Thu 05/15/14 Posts: 15048	Mon 09/10/18 11:36 AM
Im thinking... Id like to find a local honest mechanic who works for themselves.. Within a 10 mile radius in case the car wont make it... laughing that's harder than finding the perfect date! good luck!

Totage Joined Sat 10/13/07 Posts: 24210	Mon 09/10/18 11:54 AM
THIS interview I actually want and hope it goes well. lol Good luck on the interview, I hope you get it! Thanks, I think I'll get it, but keeping it will be the challenge. Hopefully it works out either way.

Rock Joined Thu 10/09/08 Posts: 21250	Mon 09/10/18 03:30 PM
It's been a lovely day.

shovelheaddave Joined Fri 05/11/18 Posts: 668	Mon 09/10/18 04:40 PM
sex,and chocolate!!

GalaxyStarz Joined Wed 04/25/18 Posts: 2697	Mon 09/10/18 04:47 PM
The idiocy of the DPS for DL renewal.

Two Joined Thu 06/02/16 Posts: 13917	Mon 09/10/18 05:31 PM
Thinking that ladies dress was not much of a dress and didn’t cover that much...