So.. at a certain point in your life!.. you realize there are more years behind you than there are ahead of you.. now I don't consider myself old by any means.. and I never really thought of my mortality.. and if I did I could easily dismiss it and not give it a second thought....but.. recently.. like in the last 3 months... I find myself waking up in a cold sweat . And slightly panicked . In the early morning hours over the thought of my own demise..lol.. and regrets... and all sorts of thoughts I never gave much married to...now.. am I losing my marbles our at a certain age do we all go through this Phase ??

Never thought about that when I was your age.

Maybe you’re having a midlife crisis a little early.

It must be LOL.. I find myself watching old people.. and thinking to myself ...how do they find the strength to go on..lol.. they seem to be in chronic pain.. I can't imagine they have much to get up for in the mornings... retired, nothing to do all day except tryng to make there pension stretch.. reminiscing about how it used to be in the good old days.. and seeing all the changes around them now and not any of them for the better.. mumbling under their breath as they walk down the grocery store aisle.. saying to themselves. I remember when that used to be $0.30.. and now it's $5.00..omg... looking in the mirror and seeing there old crinkly face lookingback at them.. well wishing to be young again .

. I am not looking forward to retirement I can tell you that.. I find myself thinking is this my fate.. old and alone.. children that don't visit.. nothing to do with my time but go to the mall and hang out with other seniors... I never thought of such things before... and at least not as frequently...

Midlife crisis is that what this is? LOL

Bless your heart lol aging isn't horrible. I'm not retired or considered a senior citizen yet hopefully . And I always complain about how things use to be cheaper. And gosh when children had some sense and respect.

Maybe this will change your outlook.

I have a sister who just turned 81! Yes she is 81 years old.

She had a long marriage and 4 kids. Divorced that hubby and married again. Her 2nd husband passed away a few years ago.

She started going out to sing karaoke with friends. Now she goes out 4 or 5 times a week to bars that have live bands. She gets up and sings a few songs with whatever band is playing. She’s having a blast.
I call her a groupie lol. Now she has a 75 year old boyfriend.

She also has kids, grandkids and great grandkids to visit with and enjoy.

I guess your senior years will be spent the way you choose to spend them. Something to think about

OP, you are but a child in the venture of life!!! Not much out of your diapers yet. In my 60s I did 2 Petty driving experiences actually driving one of their stock cars for a number of laps. Did Daytona and Kansas Speedway. Thinking I might do it again in my 70s. Did spring break with the kids in Daytona Beach and Panama City Beach. What a blast!!!! Currently in a beach front condo on South Padre. Just got back up from the whirlpool. Starting to think about coming back here for 2020 spring break. I walk on the beach most days and usually get someplace for Happy Hour. Sometimes a little late because out on a fishing charter. Later in February comes a Mardi Gras celebration I participate in followed by marching in the St. Patrick's day parade.

As long as your health holds out, being retired is all about attitude and fun. In our older age, we have less worries and a whole lot less inhibitions! Life is to be lived and enjoyed to the fullest!!! What you make of it is all up to you. Look at it this way: we know our remaining years are limited so if we take a little extra risk, the worst case is that those limited number of years become a little more limited!!!!!!

just a HINT. You have a totally empty profile, no interests, NOTHING. You might end up alone because women are going to pass you up when I have no idea of things you like to do, what is important to you, and personal profile ....Good luck.

It's been a good life.
A Helluva ride.



I did not realize, that you're actually younger than
I am.

*expletives deleted* Whipper snapper.

Take each day as it comes.
Be thankful to have woken into it.
And, live well, brother.

you lost your marbles when we first met that was four years ago !!!!!

As for regrets .. I could make a guess at what one regret is

.. you mentioned your girlfriend ... so you are not really alone ... unless she is inflatable

Cheer up no.1 .....as you age .. quite likely your memory will age ..you will live in the now and forget what lies ahead .... now would you like me to go diaper shopping with you just kidding .. you know i have your back

I don't know about all but I went thru a mortality check in my 40s, early fortys.

When I was 35 I was a bull.
You couldn't slow me down even if you tried.
I worked 18 hr days like it was nothing.
I was strong, healthy and active.
Then I got disabled at 49 years.
All thru my 40s my health started invading my me (not sure if you get that).
I dismissed the warning signs and troopered on only to end up messing myself up beyond recovery.
I went on full SSI disability at 50 and doctors told me I'll be lucky to live to 55 and this year, I turn 58.
My quality of life is a fraction of what it once was.
When I went disabled, my career job went bust and they let me go like a hot potato. 18 years and absolutely no dedication to my welfare.
Then my 25 year marriage went bust and being sick, I didn't put as much into protecting my assets as I should have and lost nearly everything.

I've rebuilt my new life from the ashes of that which I was.
For what I have to work with, I'm doing okay.

I went thru some suicidal depression when it first happened.
I couldn't imagine myself as ever being happy or contented with life anymore.
I started removing the delusions that clouded my thoughts.
I started looking at life as a process and I am now in a new section of the assembly plant.
I can't do what I used to do.
If I tried to lift a cylinder head onto a bench I would probably hurt for weeks. I used to lift and carry dumper cylinders on my shoulders.
I have come to terms with my aging.

Its a very sombering feeling to lay alone in bed at night and wonder if you will ever wake again. Then, there is the surprise that you feel when you do wake in the morning and realize you didn't die last night.

I often wondered about how I might have wasted my youth.
That is no longer an issue for me.
I don't think about living on 1/5th my normal income or what I had to give up to survive.
I just pass each day as another day in the life of.
Sometimes they are very painful and sometimes they are not so painful.

I assure you, we all go thru a mortality check when we reach a certain age.
Its not abnormal from my perspective.
I wouldn't worry about it too much.
Make the adjustments you need to make and realize that as time passes, you will be making more and more adjustments.

I'm not ... sad I am getting old but I am not happy about it either.
Its just the way it works.

Oh, btw, sorry to see you back again.
You dissappeared for a bit and I thought you might have found someone.
Sorry to see that isn't true.
Not that I don't like you, I thought you were just done with the dating site searching.
Hope you have better luck now.

You are in your prime

OP...you're 43...I wish! I'm a classic example of the old "if I'd known I would live this long I'd have taken better care of myself".
So do that for yourself. Sometimes looking younger will make you feel younger.
Don't think I'm being critical but personally I can age myself easily 20 years by not shaving for a week or so; my beard isn't gray it's white, white. So I don't do that.
Listen to music that comes from talent; I often say if it wasn't for Canada and Texas we wouldn't have much!
It's beautiful where you live, enjoy...
I asked my dad long ago (he's 3 years+ gone) who had seen and caused a lot of death while he was a Marine in Korea what he thought about death and after a few minutes he just said "You can't do anything about it so don't worry about it"!

phD, wheres your scotch?!

Did you run out of Kleenex boxes or did you have to go back to the Kleenex boxes...

Changes like this in life can lead one to ponder too much and lose their marbles for a while...

Sheesh man, you are sounding too old for me now ;-(

..lol..hi.. well I'm happy that you were at least considering me as an option LOL .. nice to see you

... I gave up the kleenex boxes..
I moved onto paper towel now LOL...

And omg seriously forgot all about the kleenex boxes ..lol..thanks for the reminder..

... hi.. I wasn't sure if you're still online or not hope all is well with you..
I gave up the Scotch they legalized weed here LOL just kidding

..
Thanks for your input and the advice..
Just between you and me I'm slightly older than my profile states I just got tired of flicking through the calendar.... different system than last time before you could just enter your birth date... again let's keep this as our little secret lol